Je Suis Charlie, Je Suis Virat Hindu

I bought three pretty idols of Saraswati from the local market, and guess what, I dropped them from the third floor to see how many pieces they would break into. I got scorned looks from my neighbors and family members, but well the broken pieces scattered across the alley made a pattern which was rather beautiful, it was art, you see. My kind of art. What do they know?

Je Suis Charlie.

The sound of bombs.

Thereof, thereupon
through this turmoil history
you shall conquer this gossamer land
looking back at times
while never looking
back.

I still wake up to the sound of bombs,
mother. 

Through this turmoil of history
your name shall be etched in
the pathos of every lover and
in mornings when I
wake up, I will hear you
play Orpheus’s lyre- and time
shall lose its meaning in
beauty as stones will melt
like hearts,

and hearts will melt like

ice in the heat of

love.


It was 

But In Memory.

The unkempt time keeper-

what is that lies in the rudder of  

your soul?

The unhinged door, what more noise

could you possibly store?

The tousled wind, did you not make her

look at me?

Is it not I, who looks at the past or does the

past look at me?

And in memory begins

memory.

But in memory begins

memory. 

A Careless Poet

On a rainy day
little drops settle on the comfortable
grass tops amidst teary eyed daughters and
foolish femmes chanting to be
androgynous seeking their beloved
attention. Conversations aren’t good enough,
there are no excuses in the
absence of love.

How alone are you in this world?
Two times, say that, yes repeat after me.
Hear me. Grow up. Procreate.
Are you alone in this world?
How alone are you in this world?

The above words are careless introductions.
He is all alone in this
world.



-
Sick with piles, pain in the asshole but the
comfort of love undoes blood stained shit,
she is looking ahead into the years of
promises, wicked camaraderie- claiming to break bones,
like elephants her memory is emotive and
fragile but
often in the name of comfort people
wreck each other’s lives.
-

He writes with one breath,
and with only one breath
he shall take in whatever
the world has to offer him
oxygen first-

He breaths in birds, and their wings
filled with the templates of foreign lands
and sorrow sings la la la la in his heart and once,
or twice he would look up in the sky and try
breathing in the cacophony of the years he had
left behind- there was a young boy and there was
this young girl, and her smell would invade his
lungs and there would be nothing more but a blur
and he will keep on inhaling with hope
until he is old and bald and
his memory is about to fail-
static, dynamic, prosaic, poetic,
the shades of a story, the absence of love,
not make believe but truth, and then one must
release, breathe out- carefully as slow as you
can- a careful poet is not a poet.


I hear his deep sigh,
-that final breath
and there along with it
everything would come out
in the papyrus of present,
and he is afraid now, of
this moment between magic and megalomania,
of what might come out of what might
have been inhaled- satan, evil, bible, koran,
gita, a careful poet is not a poet. His
pure insides must have purified the black
and made it white, oh snow, how pure,
are his words, and everything
shall remain as it is in this world of
rancor and jingoism.

-
Fanatics, fools and wise men will
read them over and over
again- words, but in that depth of their
insidious prison they would
overlook everything, for first comes
the actions and then comes the everything
else but he lived the other way
and stepped ahead in this world

-

He is almost out of breath now,
he is staying within his overcoats;
cramped within a ten feet by
three space crouched hiding
behind anonymous words, and
as his life runs out with the
last exhalation,
with that last ink of
vacillating words
      nothing else remains.

Hari Bol, Hari Bol, I hear by the old ghat
as they take him by their shoulders,
and reduce him to ashes.




 He was a communist. A careless poet.
(They donated his body to the gods above) 

Like a hyena?

He is the man who makes friends
On the road, he is someone who looks for stars
on the dusty bylanes of a choking
city, a city, that's unaware of its slow death,
like most of us.

Well, most of us.

His friends, four legged, follows him
to his address of staying and
goodbyes. He sometimes offer them brisk end of
broken biscuits and them being his friends
ask for more, they speak of not much-but
the language of old people.



Often, they nudge his feet, and for a while he feels loved in
their sinless saliva that kills bacteria, and
after a while the city must always churn up
and throw out all of that-
those
vestiges of lost feelings.


Why he wonders.


Fairy nights are meant for fairies
and poets, but for his puppy
friends  there are not many
nights as they roll up to the
wheels of a
strange device leaving him
all alone-over and over
again.

Hush now.
The night's quiet and the puppies must sleep,
and friends must seek each other out in the
pleasure of a wistful silence;


and I?




I must write till the end of the earth.
I must weep like a Hyena. 

Another New Year, bebe.

Sadness in lovers is telepathic. Like human consciousness, it transcends mysteriously through the ether of space-time, at times twitching like a caterpillar glued in amber. Sadness is telepathic and when the year draws open with the scent of a new day, always look back for memory is telephonic- sweet or sour.

Happy New Year.

Rectal.

The benefits of growing up in a house full of mad people is your memories are battered with interesting stories. Although I should mention that this story involves a man who wasn't remotely connected with my family-the reason could be that he was from Bangladesh and he spoke a language that I normally make fun of, all in good humor.

Long before "Saradha" made the headlines, the dacoits of Bengal have had a prominent place in literature and elsewhere (as here in Bengal it governs life and ideologies.) Also, one mustn't mistake communists as Robin Hood. Personally, I feel Robin Hood was much better, but then to each his own- and please let's not list down the accolades, such listing is really juvenile when it comes to debating.

I remember a time in Calcutta when it was advised not to take the Eastern Metropolitan Bypass at night, this was before we owned a car, only a few buses would ply through the wetlands of the eastern corridor and there was a scare of dacoits. Dacoits, dacoits here and there- a real threat.

The malaise of this Bangladeshi man stemmed out from this sole fact. He was paranoid about the dacoits and his paranoia could be justified- a man doesn't like losing what he has earned. I remember my father mentioning a very young me how he had help unearth this man's almost lost treasure. You see, my dad is a surgeon and cuts open people for fun, he was more than happy to do a rectal treasure hunt of an honest man who out of fear had hid it there. The asshole indeed is a wicked place. It's only function is spewing out shit. It also has the ability to suck in what it finds interesting, so you can never trust it, not with anything that's dear to you. Never with your feelings or money. The Bangladeshi man learnt it the hard way.

In times like ours, where honesty is a treatise of the past, where empty materialism addresses every decision, where misguided and principally evil people loot us in broad daylight, where being sentimental is a tragedy, where progressive thinking comes at the cost of your four walls, where love is a religious agenda, where caste is important to some patriarchs, where a civil servant still opts for dowry and a beautiful bride, one must wonder what's next, whom to trust, whom to bestow our hopes with?
What now?

Oh, by the way, since I am a 'Bhadralok' and all, next time I will use a more scientific and esoteric word for an asshole. But one can't deny the truth that assholes are assholes and for long our politicians have resembled them.